Finding intimacy in Lisbon after losing my fiancé to cancer

At the age of 30, the author faced the devastating loss of her fiancé, Ben, who died of cancer at 36. Struggling with grief, she found it challenging to navigate life without him, feeling as though she was descending into madness. Despite suggestions from doctors to consider anti-depressants, she chose to confront her pain directly, understanding that grief was a part of her journey. Seven months after his passing, she decided to travel to Lisbon with a friend, seeking to rediscover joy and intimacy. During her time in Lisbon, she embraced the idea of meeting someone new, which marked a significant step in her healing process. The trip allowed her to reflect on her life and the importance of moving forward. As she began to engage with the world around her, she felt a renewed sense of vitality and purpose. The experience of connecting with a handsome stranger helped her realize that she could still find happiness despite her loss. As the sun set over Lisbon, she recognized that grief was not something she could escape but rather something she had to live with. This acceptance led her to build a new life, one that honored her past while also embracing new possibilities. Ultimately, the author found that her life in Lisbon, enriched by new relationships and experiences, was in many ways more fulfilling than before. This journey of self-discovery and intimacy allowed her to reclaim her identity as a 30-year-old woman, moving forward with hope and resilience.