My sex drive skyrocketed after breaking up with Eliot
- The author experiences heightened libido after leaving a relationship.
- She learns about a popular clitoral suction toy from friends and decides to try it.
- The experience leads to an intense orgasm, reflecting her reclaimed sexual control.
In the context of her late-stage peri-menopause journey, a woman reflects on her heightened sex drive after a breakup. Having just ended a relationship with Eliot, she finds herself unprepared to dive back into the dating scene and is instead approaching her sexual needs on her own. In discussing her experiences with other mothers, she learns about a trending clitoral suction toy that promises to rejuvenate her sexual experiences, especially as she notices diminishing orgasm intensity. Setting aside guilt and shame from societal expectations and personal upbringing, she decides to experiment with the new toy in the privacy of her home during a school day. As she engages with the vibrator that resembles an egg-shaped wand, she recalls expectations of how it would mimic oral sex. However, the reality is different; the sensations initially remind her of a motorboat, combining vibrations with warmth and bodily awareness. This perspective shift brings a sense of wholesomeness even as she acknowledges the act's intimate nature. To her surprise, the private exploration leads to a genuinely intense orgasm, highlighting the pleasure she can attain independently of her former partner. This revelation boosts her confidence and sense of control regarding her body and sexual pleasure. Despite the initial discomfort and conflict with internalized beliefs around sexuality, she finds joy and autonomy in her newfound method of fulfilling her sexual desires. The culmination of this experience not only addresses her immediate needs but also marks a significant step in reclaiming her sexual agency during a transitional phase of her life. Ultimately, her journey reflects broader themes of personal exploration, the breaking down of societal taboos, and the embrace of self-pleasure as a healthy aspect of womanhood that can evolve over time with changing bodies and life circumstances. By sharing her story, she contributes to an ongoing conversation about women’s sexual health and the importance of tools like vibrators in enhancing sexual experience, particularly in later life stages, where such topics are often stigmatized and whispered about rather than openly discussed.